\u2026 if you didn\u2019t have a touch (or more) of madness, of moodiness and emotional lability, of doubt and depression and fear, of uncontrollable rage and joy, things you should probably go see a therapist about \u2026 You wouldn\u2019t be an artist. You wouldn\u2019t be driven to write or create or paint or compose or or or or or or whatever it is that you do \u2026 <\/p>\n
My high school physics teacher said he didn\u2019t believe in artistic temperament and that it was a copout. I struggled under the guilt of having one of those (an \u201cartistic temperament\u201d) off and on ever since. But you know, the key word there is \u201cphysics.\u201d Naw. He didn\u2019t get it. But I still try to hide it, even though it comes out here and there. It\u2019s a lot easier to hide online, but Dude lives with me. He knows.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m never more emotionally stable than when I\u2019m doing the bookkeeping and shipping and inventorying and filing. Or the sheer repetitiveness of coding e-books, building and fiddling with websites. It\u2019s engaging. It\u2019s cleansing, cathartic.<\/p>\n
There\u2019s only so much of that I can take before I must go back to the madhouse.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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