{"id":14112,"date":"2025-07-15T10:38:32","date_gmt":"2025-07-15T15:38:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/moriahjovan.com\/talesofdunham\/?p=14112"},"modified":"2026-02-23T17:07:04","modified_gmt":"2026-02-23T22:07:04","slug":"older-more-tired","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/moriahjovan.com\/talesofdunham\/blog\/older-more-tired\/","title":{"rendered":"Older, more tired"},"content":{"rendered":"
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When you say stupid shit and read it back almost 2 decades later when you\u2019re cleaning up your blog
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\"Kurt<\/p>\n

But I\u2019d had soft<\/em> beaten out of me long before then and I was pretty sure I\u2019d never be able to become soft<\/em>, so I silently rejected his advice as an impossibility. I didn\u2019t know it then (nor did he), but I was angry<\/em>. There\u2019s just no dealing with anger when you don\u2019t know that\u2019s what it is.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

So here I am, 12 years later, and life has just beaten me to a pulp. Am I any softer? Maybe, but that\u2019s the effect of time, like water smoothing out a rock.<\/p>\n

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But it\u2019s still a rock, and aimed correctly, thrown with enough force, can still kill or at least stun.<\/p>\n

I mostly don\u2019t engage in internet scuffles now. I shitpost on \ud835\udd4f when I feel like it, usually about writing, self\/publishing, and plain silliness. Obviously I haven\u2019t tended my blog in forever.<\/p>\n

I also don\u2019t engage with people much in real life, and certainly don\u2019t go off the handle in public (mostly). I\u2019ve learned to pick my battles.<\/p>\n

My latest battles:<\/p>\n